~silverlettering

ok I'm officially closing this account as of April 30th 2007 don't try to stop me but I am opening up a new account [link] if you still want to keep an update on me

this week has been interesting...I almost got caught with my bf in my car, my lil' brother's mom found out I smoke, my lil' brother also beat the crap out of his mom's "bf" (Jayson) and got jayson sent to jail...oh and now my parents are arguing about my mom's job at church and this morning I pretty much ran out of the house crying because of it... I HATE IT WHEN THEY FIGHT OR ARGUE OR WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't stand someone yelling at me or someone I care about. I'll write more later...

I wish you people would comment on my pictures more often or something because I love them. I love to know that my art is appreciated and/or admired.

OMG I can't believe that I found a guy who's soo much like me. I knew this guy pretty much all his school career but only now have I noticed him...in a freak hyperactive accident too.I was totally all over him at homecoming trying to get him to slowdance with me...or anyone for that matter.He was just leaning there against the wall so naturally I had to change that and pratically pull him away from the wall to dance after like an hour and a half of pleading and begging and bribeing him into danceing. I'm happy I did though. He turned out to be my almost exact match. He's almost 2 years younger than me but I doesn't matter to either of us.We lead two totally seperate lives and yet somehow we're doing great together.I don't know what I would do without him right now. My life is a total wreck and without even knowing it he's helping me though it. I've never felt like this about someone before. It's kinda funny because a couple days ago I broke down thinking about him and how much I like him and miss him. We only have one class together and ride the same bus and sometimes I sit with him and his friends at lunch but other than that we don't see eachother at all...but hopefully it'll all change now that I have my driver's license. Now all that I need is for my car to get fixed and I'll be set.

Ok I now wish that everything in my life was a dream so that I an wake up and face reallity.I also wanta to be like my bf snoopy.He's so calm and relaxed about life.I also wish that I was never born so that I woulda never had to kill my child yesterday.She looked so peaceful all silent and stuff.I really miss Jade and I wish that I could change the fact that she's dead now.I wish that she coulda been born to a different family,into a better one with love and compassion for her.I hated how they just killed her without any remorse or was it me who killed her by getting pregnate in the first place when I knew I couldn't support her by myself.Or when I knew the father didn't live close enough to help me raise her.I now know how my closest girl friend felt when she gave up her child to God.I just with I could take it all back and redo what I did wrong.